Its great to be able to just lazy about at home, waking up to the periodic swishing sound of the fan and the sporadic passing of cars outside your window while still comfortably tucked under your soft duvet. Even though the holidays have just passed, its been more exhausting rather then recuperating for me. Countless numbers of late nights and drinking sessions, waking up after that in time for visiting, not to mention a grueling full day of lab and class yesterday has left me drained. Not my ideal way to start off classes but much needed.
Believe it or not but I've barely even had the time to log onto the Internet, much less surf the usual blogs/sites i normally visit, or catching up with my reading (be it studies or leisure). Fear not tho cos things are starting to get back to normal, and once more i can start having a semblance of an orderly life again.
Just to make sure there's no confusion about my previous post, no I'm not seeing anyone currently and that last paragraph was not written with anyone in mind. Its just one of my fears WHEN i do meet that someone that i like that's all.
I think the most hurtful thing a person can go through is rejection. Sometimes when i think about it, it really sucks to like a person (and i do mean LIKE and not just fall for him cos he's cute or superficial things like that) and not have those feelings returned, no matter how hard you try or what you do, there's no way of getting that person to feel for you like you do for him. A feeling of hopelessness, and all you can do is sit back and just pray one day that he'll return your love. I've had those moments, not very deep or serious, but still the hurt i felt. Imagine a full blown love attack!
Probably one of the reasons why i want to be perfect, so i wont ever face rejection.
Stupid idealism :)
7 comments:
No one is perfect, K
It's a good thing that you want to improve yourself and to be a better person... but
It's even better if you'd find someone who makes you feel complete & accept you just the way you are.
cheers :)
haha well.. if you're working you still can call in 'sick' *cough cough* =P
ditto jl =)
ps - yeah hvn't been online much since my holidays started hehe. and damn that dial-up back home.. killing me slowly like it always do.
jl: yer!! u always say the right things!!!! lol. i think right now i'm just finding the person...perfection or not will have to wait lol
senai: ahhh u're in medic right? i'll know who to look for if i need an mc then :P i can nvr use dialup anymore. i'll rather die lol understand how u feel
A flawed conclusion. Your perfect is not everyone else's perfect. Just be yourself.
i agree with william and yes stupid idealism, i agree with u too. haha. stupid boy u :P
Hey K
You may be perfect, but what if the person loves you for who you are, with all your flaws?
Still, don't stop trying to be a better person!
*hugs*
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