Something Weird

I'm a guy of routine. Everything that I do has to have some kind of order planned out before I can execute them. When I go to the gym, I have to know what my workout order will be for the day and what machines will I be using, or I wont get much done. If somebody is using the machine I wanna use, I just wait for him to be done before I can move on with other sets. Unlike others, I can’t just skip that set and move on then come back to do it. When I study, I have to set a time limit before I can start and how much I have to cover in that time scope. That’s why its hard for me to hit the books if I know I have less then 2 hours of study time ahead, 2 hours is the minimum limit for me.

Same goes for when I sleep. I have a set routine I go through before I sleep every night. Usually I’ll take my final cigarette for the day on my balcony, then wash my face and clean up. I'll then set the alarm for the next day, set the timer off for the air-con, check my phone if it needs charging, make sure my water bottles by my bed, switch off the lights then go to sleep. I cant sleep with the lights on.

So it was weird to find the lights on the next day when I woke up yesterday. I remembered opening my eyes groggily and the first thing that struck my mind was why the lights were on. There was no way anybody could have come into my room because I lock my doors when I’m in my room and they were still locked when I went to check. Was a little freaked out. Maybe I’m starting to sleep walk again? I used to do that when I was little. I don’t even want to think of the other explanation!

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I know it’s a bit late, but I’ve found a gem in Jem. I'd wanted to download her album for ages but never got around to doing it till a few days back and I have to say I love it! Thumbs up to Missing You. Such a perfect song for those still hung up about a lost love or an ex. I can just see myself sitting in the dark with that song playing on loop. But seriously go download that song and check it out. My description does it no justice.

I wish this could be
a happy song
But my happiness disappeared
the moment you were gone
Don't think I ever believed that
this day would come
Now all I'm feeling
is lost and numb

And ohhh I know I promised
Mmmm that I would try

But I, yes I, miss you
and it's killing inside

I'll always be thankful
for the time we had
We were blessed
I should celebrate
but I feel too sad
All the wonderful memories
just make me fall apart
And it feels like somebody's
stabbed me in my heart

And ohhh I know I promised
Mmmm that I wouldn't cry

But I, yes I, miss you
and it's killing inside
Ooh well I, yes I, miss you
want you by my side

Walking, holding hands
Talking, making plans
Touching my heart my soul

I wish this could be
a happy song
But my happiness disappeared
the moment you were gone
Tell me it's not happening
Say it's not as it seems
Tell me that I'm gonna wake up
It's just a bad dream
Please tell me that it's fiction
Tell me it's just a lie
Whatever you choose to tell me
Please say he didn't die

And I, yes I, miss you
and it's killing inside
Ooh well I, yes I, miss you
want you by my side
Ooh well I, miss you
want you by my side
Back here by my side
Here by my side