Of Broken Words And Dreams

A promise is a powerful tool, use it wisely and great are the benefits to reap. But should you break them, you run the risk of breaking the heart of someone you care as well as losing that trust they've placed in you, and losing trust is much harder to get back then making a promise.

Why then do we make promises that even we doubt we'll keep? Even if its to assure somebody at some point in time, shouldnt we at least give it a thought before we utter those powerful words out loud? After all, we've all seen the damages of a broken promise! The promise to stay faithful, the promise to never see somebody again, the promise to forever love you, the promise to wait...how is one expected to ever put any weight in your words again if everything you've ever said never reflected how you truly felt?

Its so easy to say words isnt it? After all, thats how we communicate. We depend on people to express how they feel in order to judge the situation and make decisions. But amidst all the lies and deceit that infects the world now, it takes much more to believe in a person then it used to. Doesnt have to be an intentional lie, its just we've lost the art of really saying what we mean and meaning what we say. I guess with these kind of people we learn who they really are through their actions more because boy i can tell you, some of them can really say sweet meaningful things that will make your heart melt. Now, they just make my heart cringe!

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Its the simplicity of you that captivates my heart. Driving home last night with you resting on my shoulder, i guess it was always how i'd imagine things would be like with someone i love. Somehow you brought back the spark in me i thought i'd lost a long time ago. But just like people having dreams of a house with a garden and a picket fence, a dream is all its going to be. I'm not ready for anything and neither are you.

"Brought together by fate
kept apart by time"

Sometimes i wonder if its fear that brings us together or fear that tears us apart. The many tribulations of being gay.