So after 4 days of RnR I'm finally back from Bali.

OMG you wont believe the sights they have there! And I'm not talking about structural stuff, purely physical. I've nvr seen so many beautiful, beautiful abs staring back at me in my entire life! (Ok la so maybe i have but that was a long time ago)

Note : Bali is no place for a gay boy to be in with PARENTS! Not unless u want them to see the pooling saliva drooling from your mouth, the darting eyes, and the tenting bulge.

Seriously, took such effort to restrain myself from looking (Board shorts aren't very good cover for a growing erection). Hell even the guy peddling keropok looked yummy enough to eat. Wonder how much he would go for :P

Anyway, I cant stress how much i love that place. Whats not to love?! Food there was awesome (Think lobster meals going for RM50...FOR THREE!) Plus the whole place there is like this giant Chee Chiong Kai! Bought loads of shirts and board shorts for 10 bucks average. I just hope that red shirt i bought is colour fast tho.

And i finally went for my first massage. No biggie la. I think i was pretty relaxed then so not much knots to massage away, but still it was relaxing. Melted like putty in her hands. Maybe it would have been better if it was a he. Oh well, beggars cant be choosy can they now.

The bf is so gonna kill me when he read this! LOL

My advice for those thinking of a holiday, consider Bali if you have a big enough group of friends to go with. It would be much better, unless you intend to go to some quiet, tropical getaway for a lil honeymoon. In that case, dont stay in the city (Kuta) but go for some place in Nusa Dua. Didnt get a chance to go there myself but i heard its paradise.

Kuta is for people to PARTY, PARTY, PARTY!

Sigh, I'm already missing that place now. Was really down when we had to leave finally.

Change of future plan la. I'm so gonna retire there and be a beach bum.



ps : Guess what? They even have Krispy Kreame there! For those of you who dont know what they are, they're donuts that are TO DIE FOR! I have 2 dozen in my fridge now :p

I drew a circle on the canvas of life
but the ends never met, i didnt know why
and then you showed up, and picked up the pen
and guided my hands, you made those ends meet

From that day on, i knew it would be
that life as i knew it, would change totally

I'm happy when you're happy
I grow sad when you're sad
I laugh at the sight of your laughter
I cry at the sight of your tears

Tho the journey was tough, with storms in our path
Tho the journey still is, with thorns in our side
Tho my heart sometimes grow weary having to decide
I never regretted the day i met you

And I love you

Love oh love, such a strong word
I kept it inside for such a long time
not wanting to say it in fear the meaning lost
should the timing be wrong just a second too short

But love is now, and love is us
I feel it in you, i hope you do too
The deeds that you do, your actions so loud
I'm constantly assured, of a love i'm so proud

Baby i love you!

Brain Dead

tapity tap tap

Only 2 more days till my departure and i have yet to complete a long list of task i'd set myself to complete b4 leaving.

Its terrible. I've been feeling super lazy this hols, alternating between lazing around the house watching tv and going out with the bf ONLY. And my room is in the exact state it was during exam period, aka super messy with notes everywhere. Sometimes i wish i had a maid. But then again i dont trust them, and who knows where my notes will all end up if i ever need them again. Oh well...

Will be going to view my future house tomorrow :D All psyched up now and hoping it will be nice. I'll hate it if i had to stay in an old, run down house for the next one yr. But i heard its nice so fingers crossed.



Wah...seriously, my brain is on shutdown mode. Cant write anymore. Perhaps i shall switch to one of those picture blogs and let them do the talking instead. K la wont write anymore crappy post for now. Grr

My Bouncy Penis!

I've got a bouncy penis. Its all squashy and soft and elastic. You can do whatever you want with it and it just pops back in shape again. Five people has already witness my penis being smashed onto an aluminium table and its still alright. Really, i have one hell of a durable penis.

Of course, i'm not talking about the one that comes attached to me la.

This ones made in Thailand :P

However, its not very useful if you ask me. I mean whats the point of having a soft dick right? So now it sits on my table looking very very obscene, jingling away merrily each time its touched.

I bet i could make some old perverted men happy tho if i just went around holding it infront of my pants. You know, that voyeur thingy where they get all excited thinking that they had a peek at your goods. Seriously, this thing can look quite real from afar if you dont look at it for too long. One might think that i have a cute healthy pinkish looking penis hanging :P That is if i dont get arrested for indecent exposure first la.

So if any of u guys are interested in viewing my bouncy penis let me know la. You'll nvr know which one i might post up.

HAHAHAHA

I feel like such a whore.

I cant wait to show it to the bf tomorrow.

I have too much time.

I have to clean up my room....someday.

I talk rubbish.

Ta

Ok i think i've kept my silence for long enough.

Truth be told, i've been meaning to blog for quit some time now but somehow always manage to 'lose the feeling' whenever i face my screen. Besides, i've done nothing blog-worthy so far so nothing much to say la.

Anyway thanks alot to those that gave me encouragement throughout the rough patch i was going through. Not so emo now. Calm enough to think logically and plan my next step la at least.

....

*blink blink*

....

K i've actually got nothing to say. Well, goodnight folks.

Muse...come back!

ta

Run
Running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side

Me
I'm the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most
I'm so sorry that I'm falling
Help me up lets keep on running
Don't let me fall out of love

Running, running
As fast as we can
Do you think we'll make it?
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
So we don't get separated

Be
Be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Don't stop inspiring me
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up

it's been a good journey.

and like all good journeys, this one might come to its end.

too much tears have fallen.

i dont know how this will end.

and i'm just so tired.

FUCKED AGAIN AND AGAIN

Just when i thought the worst was over, the wind blows and brings me a new storm.

Sometimes i dont know if God sits up there on his throne and deals out turmoil on peoples life just for the fun of it. Sure seems that way to me. I pray for safe journey and thank him for his grace, but he says 'Oh no child, thats just the calm before the storm. Wait till you see what i have in store for you' and snickers.

And i hate it that my holiday is now ruined.

The break i've been looking for in ages has now turned into a warfield once again, and i feel just like a little boat drifting out at sea with an impending doom. I hate what they did to me. They had no rights! Fuck!

Sry if i dont reply ur msg on sms or msn, i've lost all mood for socializing. I wouldnt be much fun anyway.


A lifetime of pain all brought up in an instance
A lifetime of healing all ripped from the seams
A lifetime of thinking all has to be undone
A lifetime of suffering all imminent


FUCK THIS SHIT!

Its Over!

And with that he takes a great leap across the finish line.

The tortures finally over. And my 4 month holiday starts today!

WEEEEEEEE!

I'm so tired right now, my eyes keep closing but i cant sleep. Wanted to get a haircut after exam then take a nap but my hairstylist will only be free at 5pm so i have to wait. Sigh.

K will probably post more later. Brain juice depleted!

Ta

The Final Hurdle

just a little bit more

hope i dont trip at the end

that would be an embarrassment

Captain Procrastinator

Sometimes i hate myself so much

I Have Weird Friends

[Cy] : last nite i had sucha weird dream
[Cy] : like mega weird

kev : what was it about?

[Cy] : i dreamt i was someone else last nite
[Cy] : and i went to the toilet
[Cy] : and shit so damn much
[Cy] : it started accumulating til overflow
[Cy] : the floor all got
[Cy] : my feet was covered with shit!

kev : WTF!

[Cy] : then i somehow kicked all the shit off the toilet floor into the bowl and the floor was damn clean! and my shoes were damn clean also
[Cy] : then i went out
[Cy] : got other stuff but i forgot. but i think someone went into the toilet after that hahahaha and complained abt someone shitting
[Cy] : HAHAHAHAHA


Tell me i'm wrong

-.-

A Breath of Relief

Phewww!

Finally, two papers down. I cant describe just how relieved i am. After a month of seclusion with a daily routine of only two things, study and eat (ok la plus tv and internet too :P), i cant say i'm absolutely pleased with how things went for the two papers but i'm contented. Now its up to fate, luck and God, take your pick.

But as always, the worst is still yet to come. Monday will be my final and toughest paper this semester and i'm absolutely shitting my pants thinking about it. A combination of two subjects into one 3 hour long paper, add one rubbish lecturer and another fucking strict one, and you've got yourself one hell of a time. Literally.

_________________________

My friends dont believe me when i tell them i'm at home.
They call me on fridays and ask me to come out, and when i'm staying home to study....they laugh!

-.-

Dont blame them tho. Tried thinking back to the last time i was at home on a friday night and...nope cant even remember when. Theres just something about fridays that makes you wanna go out and just do something different besides the usual stuff.

The one thing i'm craving the most now is MAHJONG. I have to admit that the hands been getting pretty itchy lately and i cant wait to just play the game whole night long then go out for dim sum breakfast in the morning. Yes yes...i'm becoming such a tai tai.

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Tried working out today and man, my stamina is gone. Zilch. Nada. Couldnt do the weights i usually do! Couldnt last for more then 3 reps! Thank god i can still last on the cycle machine albeit looking alil zombified by the end of it. This is why i dont wanna join FF, Cali or any other big gyms. I dont get it how some people can run for half hour and still step off looking like a million bucks. NO FAIR!

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Thats it for today. If you've read till here, you've just wasted like 5 minutes of your time with my ramblings. And i probably hate you for actually having time to waste! :P

Relax take it easy

5 Minute Quikie

I shouldnt be doing this, not when exams are just a day away. But i'm so bored i could die. So its either this or well...die. And i'll rather prefer not to die seeing i've missed so much this whole month just preparing for my impending doom (unlike some lucky person whose exams got deferred to a later date! *evil stare).

Been thinking of changing my blog site to either livejournal or xanga because blogspot is so damn slow to log in. Takes up like 5 minutes of my very very very precious time just to get to the sign in page, then another 5 minutes to view the dashboard, AND another 5 minutes to create a new post! Grrr...thats like 15 minutes of my life wasted just waiting. Cant decide tho between livejournal or xanga. But i probably wont change until i have time to learn some webdesigning skills. Cant stand the layouts of both those mentioned sites. So void of erm...personality.

And yes, once again i've been planning my things to do ALREADY for when the holidays come. Dont wanna miss out on doing anything due to poor planning :P So far theres 4 trips booked but the one i'm looking forward most is Bali.

Weeee.......

Cant wait to just chill out and relax once i get there. Not to mention shopping! Can anybody tell me if i can get nice singlets there? Or do i have to get them here before i leave. I plan to be a proper tourist! *giggles*

Bad thing is i'll be going with the parents. Ok so not exactly bad cos they ARE paying for my trip, but i guess no clubbing or drinking or checking out the local gay clubs there this time around. I guess getting hammered will have to wait for when i go to PD. Oh and this time i am so gonna have myself a proper spa experience! I'm so glad my mum brought it up because i told her i'm gonna tag along and thats final. Lol.

Oh man...rejuvenate before regurgitate O.o

Not forgetting my beloved clubs too! How i've missed the sweet sweet beat of trance, the ear shattering boom of bass and the sights of sweaty men. The bf is so gonna pengsan if he ever reads this! He's a protective guy, that bf is. Even suggested that i only go clubbing with him. I just told him that he'd better keep most of his weekends free then :P But i love him to bits!

Well i planned to go on about how sweet he is and all that lovey dovey stuff but i shall not cause any excessive sweet post induced diabetic attacks for today. Besides, its time to get back to the boring stuff again.

Sigh!!!

If only i was Hiro! I could just speed up time at my whim. Ok maybe i cant speed up time yet cos i'm not prepared. Slow it down? Shit i cant stand an additional day of this mental torture. Damnit no wonder i dont have superpowers! I wouldnt be able to use it at all!

Terbaik Untukmu

Aku sadar kalau kini
Kita sudah smakin menjauh
Sempat aku berpikir ini
Kau yg menginginkannya
Lepas dari pelukku

oh kini aku sadari
ini salahku
tak ingin ku terlambat dan sesali

maafkanlah bila ku selalu
membuatmu marah dan benci padaku
ku lakukan itu semua
hanya tuk buatmu bahagia

mungkin ku cuma tak bisa pahami
bagaimana cara tunjukkan maksudku
aku cuma ingin jadi terbaik untukmu

Aku ingin kau tetap di sini bersamaku
Jangan Pergi
Berikan satu kesempatan
Untuk ku membuktikan
sesungguhnya cintaku

~Tangga - Terbaik Untukmu~

Bleh

"with simple words i pray
that this day will quickly pass away"

Kev is bored, uninspired and frustrated!