My Beach Romance

Winter brings a chilly wind
Summer's gone, no summer breeze
Sands so fine escape my hands
I look upon the moonlit seas

You rush to shore
and then retreat.
I wonder why
you cant decide.
To come or go
To stay or leave
So many years
You're still like this.

Each time your foamy hands climb alittle higher
and i think you're really trying harder
to make things mean alittle deeper
you recede once again
to that same old place you first came

I wont believe you
the next wave
Cos i know its gonna be the same again
Dont say words that you dont mean
Trust can easily float away
away
away

Show Me The Money

I.REALLY.NEED.TO.STUDY!

Now with that out of the way, lets get on with blogging.

Unfortunately the good life has indeed distracted me from my blog and utterly destroyed my determination to blog everyday. One would think that with 9 days of holidays (all thanks to our Hindu and Muslim friends) surely i could squeeze in at least one miserable day just to write. I guess the bf, Grey's Anatomy, ANTM, OTH and most of all, shopping tops the chart of my daily to-do list.

Well since i'm here now, lets try to see if we can just combine the top priorities with writing. I'll start of with shopping i guess since that's wat i have been doing the most for the past one month (week). I really dont know y i keep doing it, seeing that i'm really broke and cant even afford the cheapest thing available right now! Please somebody, tell me y i put myself in this torture! Theres a gorgeous shirt in Topman i really want, shoes, underwear and belt from Zara, jeans and more shoes from Miss Sixty, a t-shirt from British India not to mention many many other clothes from every other shop which i cant fit cos they're all too blardy big for me. Sigh...at moments like this i really hate my size. My parents on the other hand are rejoicing.

Once in awhile, i do dream of aquiring a couple of millions by luck. Maybe a relative somewhere dies leaving me a fortune in his/her will, or my parents suddenly telling me that they're actually millionairs and that they've only been in disguise as poor people for my protection and now i'm filthy rich, or even winning a lottery (this is a tough one because i dont even buy the lottery...but fingers crossed). Watching Greys Anatomy doesnt help either considering that the oh-so-pretty Dr Stevens just got like 8.7 mil from her fiance who passed away. I really hate to taint their relationship with money like that because it was such a sad story. I like her so much more then Meredith (that whore) but girl, ITS 8.7 MILLION DOLLARS! Sigh...

Watching the new season of ANTM, it is to my opinion that AJ should just win this competition hands down. With a face like that and her consistency in striking amazing poses, not to mention she still looks like a model even without hair and make-up, i just cant imagine anyone else winning it. Seriously that girl can probably make me fall in love with a girl...maybe not, but she is definately hot! And she has that wow factor in her too. Everytime i watch her strut her stuff, i just seeth in jealousy wishing i could be like that. And then i watch Project Runway, and change my mind and wish i could be a designer instead...or maybe a pilot...or an interior designer. Yes i know i really cant make up my mind but u cant blame me, i read in this horoscope book about Librans and found out that its already set in the stars we're made to be fickle. It also said a whole bunch of other stuff so true and really defined who i was that i was almost convinced there may be something to astrology as i've never really believed in these kind of stuff before.

My bf is confusing. And he thinks alot. I've always thought that i was the thinker, but it turns out that he thinks even more then me. Plus he reads into things, then keeps it to himself. He doesnt realise this but i do notice when something bugs him. I can tell by the way he stiffens himself and i know he holds back what he wants to say. We always tell each other to be honest and to just say what is on our minds, but i dont think thats possible. There have been bumps in our relationship, but i think we've both been strong in facing these adversities. Thats what keeps us together. I really hope to just take things as it is and enjoy the moments we share together and hopefully, forever is not just wishful thinking.

Oh btw, just want to say that Open Season is hillarious! Go watch.

Tick Tock

Peruse the many online profiles on sites like Friendster or myspace or even fridae and you will find reading choosen as a hobby quite often. I wonder however, how many amongst these people actually do have time to read in this age where everything moves at warp speed and deadline's literally mean its time to die! With competition soaring high and job vacancies scarce, so much to do and so little time, everybody is swamped with work now that we might as well scrap the word hobby from the dictionary. I mean, who the hell has time for these sort of things anymore?

I have a book (Angels and Demons by Dan Brown) which i bought 2 months ago during my holiday and its still lying on the shelf in the same plastic bag it came with and i honestly have not had the time to even glance at it. I bet the receipt is still there as well! In my opinion, we have pushed ourselves to the point bordering on insanity. In our quest to improve life, our drive to succeed is now driving us instead. Does that make sense?

I've always wondered that if someone were to step back in time and observe people from before, will we be able to say that 'Yes, the people of today are really more happy then those living from the past.'? If the answer is no, what the hell are we doing?!?!?! Honestly, the only time i had to do my reading was while i was in uk, and that was only because i skipped classes too blardy often...okok it was more like i nvr went for classes. Believe me, the price to pay was high!

The joy of reading for me is that i get to go to another place, though not necessarily a better one, but one that allows me to forget the worries i face currently. One may call it a form of escapism i guess. But if you dont already know this, life's a bitch. Between juggling between classes, labs, assignments, family, friends and boyfriend, there seem to be no time for reading! Thats y i stopped filling in the hobbies part on these kindda things. Doesnt matter if i have any, its not like i have the time to actually do it.

Ok so in the end, this whole post is just about me ranting of my lack of time. Maybe its just poor time management on my part, and i'm pretty sure the bf will comment on this...hmphh, but at the end of the day, i just wanna finish my book! Not too sure how long i can hold off anymore before buying another one and i'll hate to spend more money on books before i can even finish reading the previous one. Hopefully the book's good tho because it was recommended by a friend. I didnt find Da Vinci Code that interesting but Deception Point was alright.

If only i could turn back time

I'm with you on that one Aqua!


ps : what happened to u guys btw...sigh. I loved cartoon heros!

Perfect Day

Seems like life has been quite kind to me recently. After a certain dramatic period of time, things have finally mellowed down, and i'm taking full advantage of it not to mention enjoying the moments. Me and the boyfriend managed to squeeze in more then a few precious moments to be together despite our hectic and forever colliding schedule and i guess this has made us treasure the times we share together even more, although i dont really show it :( I've been told countless of times that i can be quite unemotional sometimes but the ex and now the current. Is that bad? hmm...

Anyway, we watched John Tucker Must Die on friday. The movie was ok i guess, something to fill your time with if u're just seeking for light hearted moments. Be prepared to laugh tho cos u'll need to put alittle effort in it. This movie is not the kind where u'll really find it funny so a little mental preparation is needed. Its so sad that good comedies are hard to find nowadays...sigh. On the brighter note, Jesse Matcalfe is soo goodlooking! Plus the locker room scene is probably worth the whole 11 bucks we paid for the movie...lol. And Sophia Bush stars in this show as well so another plus. I think she has this really husky sexy voice plus this exotic look. For all those who dont know her, shes on One Tree Hill as well so go check her out (and while u're at it u might as well check Chad Michael Murray cos he's hot too lol).

On Saturday, we watched World Trade Center. I wasnt so keen on this movie (American propoganda) but i guess i went because of the people. Had a house party after that so though we might as well just join them for movie too. Well i was right. The movie was such a let down. I cant really say where they went wrong but in the end i just didnt relate to the movie at all. I was left emotionless and totally clueless about what the main plot of the movie was all about. Maybe they should rename it to something like 'Saving 2 officers from WTC' or 'What i did when WTC collapsed on me' or something to that effect. That would have been more appropriate i think.

Anyway, the weekends over once again. I'm so not looking forward to monday classes anymore now that lab has started. Nobody should have 9-5 classes on a Monday...EVER! This semester is however, starting to look quite promising. Been quite consistent in revisions and i really, really pray that i can keep this up till exams! I have to admit i've been having quite strong determination this time to see things through, but everytime i meet someone who says they're from advertising or designing (been meeting quite afew ppl in those line recently, interesting bunch of ppl) and tell me their job scope or their class schedule, i cant help but to just bash my head against the wall and cry out 'Why?'. Hopefully i'll like my job next time, but until i do i shall just wail and complain to the poor bf about the poor choices and multiple lack of judgements i've made in my life. Dont know which is worse? To be me or to be him...lol.

If Only

I waited for bluebirds to sing
but i hear blackbirds crow
I waited for bells to ring

but i heard

the silence of the night
and the wailing of the wind on an empty sky

Where there is land, is where i want to step.
To go places i've not seen, to see places i've not been.
But this journey is long and the lesson hard.
To appreciate the moment but not drown in it.
To move forward yet keep one foot back.
Caution thrown in the wind,
and comes back with a slap.

The tide grows strong,
I have to be firm.
Because even fishes drown in the sea.
Swing the mighty sword around,
Its blades will cut you one day.

The bird escapes from its cage.
Try as you may,
you cant catch it.
Freedom has a price to pay,
its you, its you i'm coming for one day.

It is official, Devil Wears Prada is now the best movie of the year in my books. I really dont care if its just a mindless chick flick, that movie rocks...lol All that fashion, glitter, and models in one simple 2 hour movie, one cant ask for much more then that. Not to mention Meryl Streeps stunning performance as this power lady and Ann Hathaway as the once again innocent two faced bitch. Really who on earth would fall for that 'Oh i'm so innocent and oblivious that i dont even know i'm a stunning, gorgeous lady whom everybodys falling for!' line over and over again? But i dont blame her...every good movie needs a slut, so well done Ann Hathaway!

On the other hand, i just watched The Notebook as well last night and was really touched by the simplicity of the story and the depth of love between them, especially on Noah's side. It wasnt so much the love story they shared when they were young but rather the end when Noah stuck by her side while she suffered from Dementia. To slowly watch as the person u love so much forget about you is the hardest thing that could ever happen to anyone. And the end when he slips in her bed after he suffered from another heart attack and she remembers him, and then they die hand in hand, that was such a sweet ending.

Allie : Do you think our love can take us away together?
Duke : I think our love can do anything we want it to.
Allie : I love you.
Duke : I love you too, Allie.
Allie : Goodnight.
Duke : Goodnight. I'll be seeing you.

Thanks Chien for introducing this show.