My dear friend i've missed you so
although regret i've never shown
The adventures that we have shared
the joy of us just being there
We laugh back at those times
Oh but what precious memories
They were for me
There's so much i want to say,
There's so much i want to tell,
The need for you to understand
The me that i've become.
But words are hard to come
and facing you is harder still
And so i let our friendship fade
but worse was that i hurt you too
At times i think back on 'our long walks
with talks of future, relationships and God
And all the funny things that we used to do
like jumping on the bed, n breaking my tooth
Or what about the time when we,
played badminton and smashed the lights?
Only things that two of us could do
If only i could be, the friend you want of me
provide you comfort when you cry
Or be a companion by your side
A lunch date perhaps, or dinner at night?
Called you more often and make you laugh?
Or maybe what you really wanted
Was for me to be
a friend, nothing more,
just a friend
But all i have now are words
and all i can do is apologize
And truly i'm sorry for what i've done
and more so i'm sorry for what i've not
Cos believe me when i say this
losing your friendship was hard on me
So maybe what i really need to do
Is say sorry for not being strong enough,
although regret i've never shown
The adventures that we have shared
the joy of us just being there
We laugh back at those times
Oh but what precious memories
They were for me
There's so much i want to say,
There's so much i want to tell,
The need for you to understand
The me that i've become.
But words are hard to come
and facing you is harder still
And so i let our friendship fade
but worse was that i hurt you too
At times i think back on 'our long walks
with talks of future, relationships and God
And all the funny things that we used to do
like jumping on the bed, n breaking my tooth
Or what about the time when we,
played badminton and smashed the lights?
Only things that two of us could do
If only i could be, the friend you want of me
provide you comfort when you cry
Or be a companion by your side
A lunch date perhaps, or dinner at night?
Called you more often and make you laugh?
Or maybe what you really wanted
Was for me to be
a friend, nothing more,
just a friend
But all i have now are words
and all i can do is apologize
And truly i'm sorry for what i've done
and more so i'm sorry for what i've not
Cos believe me when i say this
losing your friendship was hard on me
So maybe what i really need to do
Is say sorry for not being strong enough,
for me and you.
~k
~k
1 comment:
You said..
"If only i could be, the friend you want of me
provide you comfort when you cry
Or be a companion by your side"
but i also wanted to be there for you as a friend.. to provide you comfort when you're down or even if u do cry (though guys prolly won't admit that).
do u know i teared just reading ur entry? especially the part.. "like jumping on the bed, n breaking my tooth
Or what about the time when we,
played badminton and smashed the lights?
Only things that two of us could do" i can't believe u remember that!!
and for ur info, i ve never judged u. never. perhaps wondered how u came along to the path that u re on now. no one's perfect. i, too am flawed. what u dun see doesn't mean it's not there.
i just wanted to understand why u made promises to me and then just break them when by doing that, u made me sad.
and in a way i think deep down in my heart i did know why u drifted away from our friendship which was cos u didn't want me to judge u. or see the path u chose but it hurts nonetheless.. to be shut out. to only get a glimpse of ur life thru fb or other ppl's blogs.
all those empty years.. the gaps in our friendship.it's not too late u know. i m stil here for u if u ever need a shoulder to lean on. a friend to just be there irregardless of anything. that's what friends are for. wat more to say childhood friends.
i m still here if u do decide to rekindle this friendship.
just another human in an imperfect world who missed those long talks.. and basically, who just missed u for u
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