My Dear Friend

My dear friend i've missed you so
although regret i've never shown
The adventures that we have shared
the joy of us just being there
We laugh back at those times
Oh but what precious memories
They were for me

There's so much i want to say,
There's so much i want to tell,
The need for you to understand
The me that i've become.
But words are hard to come
and facing you is harder still
And so i let our friendship fade
but worse was that i hurt you too

At times i think back on 'our long walks
with talks of future, relationships and God
And all the funny things that we used to do
like jumping on the bed, n breaking my tooth
Or what about the time when we,
played badminton and smashed the lights?
Only things that two of us could do

If only i could be, the friend you want of me
provide you comfort when you cry
Or be a companion by your side
A lunch date perhaps, or dinner at night?
Called you more often and make you laugh?
Or maybe what you really wanted
Was for me to be
a friend, nothing more,
just a friend

But all i have now are words
and all i can do is apologize
And truly i'm sorry for what i've done
and more so i'm sorry for what i've not
Cos believe me when i say this
losing your friendship was hard on me
So maybe what i really need to do
Is say sorry for not being strong enough,

for me and you.

~k