A Poor Man's Tale

Thank God CNY is coming up! Or else i'll have to satiate my hunger with mere grass and fresh air for the whole of next month.

Just blew a whooping RM250+ for my baby's birthday.

Lets start with dinner at La Bodega. OMG i just love that place! The food was a refreshing change from the usual pasta/pizza/kim gary dinners that we always have. Lucky i choose the right tapas as they all came with amazing sauces to dip our bread in. That alone almost filled us up (or me at least). Topped it up with a paella for two. Was really surprised how flavorful the rice was. By the end of the night, my face had almost turned the exact same shade as the wine we ordered...so shy! But it was such a wonderful experience. This memory made sweeter knowing that we're almost to our 1 year mark :)

Total damage for the night? RM175

Next was a shirt that i paid for him from FOS. Wasnt meant to be a pressie as he needed it for work, but i was afraid we wouldnt make it for dinner on his birthday as he was busy being choi san at work. Shirt cost RM60. Plus we ate at Sushi King for tea and the bill came up to RM35?

And i really wanted to get a shirt from TopMan that cost RM166. Its so out of my reach now.

Shit!!!!!!!!

I'm so broke! :'(

The Dream

He opened his eyes to find the house filled with people. They were sitting all around him - all silent, all dressed in black. He tried to catch their gaze, but those that looked up only looked past him. Their faces were etched with sorrow but it wasn't the kind of grief that one does for a good friend or a loved one. This was more of sadness at having to go through death.

Unable to get anyones attention, he decided to wonder the house. The people that filled it were all strangers to him. Some bore semblance to people he might have known, but none really showed any recognition of him. And so he walked on. Down a dimly lit corridor until he reached another section of the house.

It was a huge hall. Again like the other, the room was filled with people shuffling about. They all looked to the center of the room, staring at the black coffin that laid amongst a bed of brightly coloured flowers. With small steps, he slowly made his way towards it.

Funny how the room seems much smaller now, he thought to himself as he approached the coffin. In just a few steps, he found himself beside the polished black box. Suddenly the air was still and the crowd that was there a moment ago disappears, leaving just him and the black box in front of him.

The lid was up, inviting him to have a peek. He took a second to consider before tiptoeing and leaning forward to have a look. He was greeted by his own reflection, only his reflection had his eyes closed. It took him a moment before he could register what was going on, and then the fear came along with a gasp as he woke up.

2008

let it go,
let it roll right off your shoulder
don’t you know
the hardest part is over
let it in,
let your clarity define you
in the end
we will only just remember how it feels

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
in these small hours,
these small hours still remain

let it slide,
let your troubles fall behind you
let it shine
until you feel it all around you
and i don’t mind
if it’s me you need to turn to
we’ll get by,
it’s the heart that really matters in the end

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

all of my regret
will wash away some how
but i can not forget
the way i feel right now

in these small hours
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away but these small hours
with these small hours, still remain,
they still remain
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away
but these small hours
these little wonders still remain

~Rob Thomas
Little Wonders

A note to myself: As we celebrate the passing of another year and wonder whats in store in the next, learn to live for the moment. Take time to breath and appreciate the little wonders happening all around. Think twice before acting and let bygones be bygones. Most importantly, live a life you'll be proud to look back upon.

I guess one could say this is my resolution for 2008

When Your Gone

I miss you so much baby
that i sometimes wish u didnt have to go away
...at least not at a time like this
but still it cant be helped
and you really do deserve this trip
so i'm sitting here hoping u'll have a great time
whilst wishing u'd come home quick into my arms again
until then, i'd just continue to listen
to the playlist that i made for you
when I went away the last time

with love
k