For The Love Of V-Day

Its been 4 days past the much anticipated V-Day. And maybe the word 'anticipated' isn't the choice for everybody. But for me it was because for the first time, i had someone to celebrate it with. Somehow i always manage to miss those special occasions in all my past relationships, give or take a birthday or two.

But this year was different. So far I've looked past Christmas in a lovers embrace, shared a New Year's kiss and celebrated both our birthdays together. V-day no longer needed an organised gathering of the singles and a night ending in drunken stupor. This year, i had him to hold my hand as we made sweet, sweet love.

So when he asked me what should we do on that day, I stupidly replied nothing.

'Its just another over-commercialized day aimed to generate more money' I said.

-.-

And he took my word for it.

-.-

So we ended up celebrating Valentines in Kim Gary and later watched the finale of The Amazing Race Asia at home. (which was totally awesome btw cos Singapore won...such a lovely couple)

Of course I really wasn't bothered much about the lack of romance for that day because as much as I'd like to place sentiment on it, V-day just doesnt do anything for me. Unfortunately, I'm not the dinner and flowers kindda guy. However, what disappointed me was the lack of effort.

But this disappointment didn't cross my mind until he brought up the notion of buying a laptop. Now one of the key reason why we decided not to celebrate V-day was because we didnt want to spend unnecessary money on an over-priced dinner and here he was suggesting buying a 4k laptop. Of course he said that he needed it for work but the selfish part of me reasoned that if he didnt need one for 2 years, he certainly didnt need it now. Sure it would be a convenience, but definitely not a necessity.

And then he said something that made my blood boil.

'I didnt know I needed to show you physically how much I love you'.

Of course i was angry. Are you calling me a money sucking tramp?!?!

But it also got me thinking. Is this really who I'm becoming? Am I slowly morphing into that kind of person that I swore I'll never be? What happened to the guy who was contented with what he has?

The truth is I still am the same person I was before. I've always been me, what you see is what you get. Even my best friend knows you cant control the things that pops up in my brain from stumbling out my mouth, even if it means chaos. But one thing I've always placed importance in is landmark. Events marked by a special occasion. Occasions I can look back upon and smile and remember of good times.

I dont ask you to lavish me with gifts of gold or food fit for a king. All I've ever wanted and ever will is your love. But with love comes effort. And the effort to make an event a special occasion is worth much more then anything your money can ever buy. So you see my bf is 90% sugar and spice and everything nice but 10% a total duh.

So right now he's going crazy planning our anniversary and is expecting me to fly off with him to (suggested location: Singapore, Langkawi, Sabah) over the weekend to celebrate the occasion.

Crazy!

I have a thesis to finish writing ok. Plus my parents will totally kill both you and me if they ever found out. But I do appreciate the effort you're putting in now, even if its wayyyy overboard.

Because the flame of romance will one day die out, and if we're not careful and continue to be complacent, we might forget how to light that candle once again. And that would be a tragedy.